Sorry I haven’t posted in a while. Thanksgiving was really busy and now it’s exam week at school, so I’m going to study and I’ll get back to you guys next week.
Asegi
November 20, 2009 at 10:43 (Gay, Lesbian, Bisexual, and Transgender Issues, Race and Culture, Writing)
Tags: asegi, Cherokee, gay, glbt, native, native american, qwo-li, stomp dance, transgender, two-spirit
aSf (asegi)1, tl? Dcc` (taliquo didandan`)2 , aSd ucT (asegi udanto)3, asf=sd` ucT(asgayusd` udanti)4, af=sd` ucT (ageyusd` udanti)5. These are all words and phrases that that the Cherokee two-spirits use to identify themselves. The concept of two-spirits is present in every North American tribes’ culture. After European colonization most indigenous cultures were Christianized and lost their two-spirit identities. It is up to today’s two-spirit generation to stand up and define what it means to be two-spirit.
Two-spirit is a term used to describe the wide variety of gender and sexuality in native cultures. It comes from the idea that there are two spirits in a person’s body, a male spirit and a female spirit. Two-spirits come in all genders and sexualities. The Cherokee people have a dance, the Stomp Dance, that is said to restore balance to the world. In this dance women shake shells and dance while the men sing. The male bodied two-spirits shake shells with women. In hir’s6 essay “Shaking our Shells: Cherokee Two-spirits Rebalancing the World” Qwo-Li Driskill calls for all Cherokee two-spirits to come together and claim their place in the tribe’s circle. “We are being called to take our place within our communities, to “shell shake” our traditions in order to restore duyuktv7. The responsibilities we have as male-embodied Two-Spirit Cherokees—to sustain our lifeways and cultures—is like shell shaking. We have the responsibility to restore and maintain duyuktv through practicing Cherokee lifeways and ending gender oppressions” (Driskill). Being two-spirited is about more than being gay or lesbian or transgender or intersex. It is about rebalancing the world by taking back the traditional two-spirit roles. It is about shaking shells and weaving baskets for male bodied Cherokee two-spirits. In most tribes the medicine person was a two-spirit. Two-spirits were looked towards for advice because it was thought that they could see both sides of situation easily.
Part of reclaiming the two-spirit identity is reclaiming a culture that was lost with colonization. The Cherokee in particular converted to Christianity early on in colonization. By the time of Andrew Jackson’s presidency, the Cherokee people were very westernized. The current generation of elders struggles with the idea of two-spirits. It is a part of their culture that they have forgotten in lieu of the religious principles of Christianity. This is one of the biggest challenges when it comes to reclaiming the two-spirit identity because Christianity, as it was brought to the Americas, has rigid gender roles and rules about sexuality that do not fit in to the roles of native people in indigenous cultures.
I have struggled with this essay because it has not been a reformation of ideas or concepts that I already knew and understood. It has been a long and tedious journey for me because before this essay I did not know where I stood. I did not know if I was two-spirit or if I could even claim the title. Now I know. I am a Cherokee two-spirit. It is my duty to reclaim my place in the circle, to define what it means to be two-spirit in a modern world. I am aSf(asegi).
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1aSf (asegi) is a Cherokee word that was created for a project by America Meredith to help spread the Cherokee language. She defines the word as queer or glbt (gay, lesbian, bisexual, transgender). The project is called Cherokee Spokespeople and consists of spokecards decorated with Cherokee words in Cherokee syllabary and in Romanized letters and illustrations to convey the means of the words.
2Taliquo didandan` is a Cherokee phrase that translates to “they have two hearts”.
3Asegi udanto is a Cherokee phrase that translates to “strange heart”.
4Asgayusd` udanti is a Cherokee phrase that translates to “they have a man’s heart or feelings”.
5Ageyusd` udanti is a Cherokee phrase that translates to “they have a woman’s heart or feelings”.
6Hir and ze are both gender ambiguous pronouns used to take the place of his and her and he and she respectfully. The origin of these pronouns is unknown, but they have been used for quite some time by people of nonstandard gender identities.
7Duyuktv is a Cherokee word that means balance, truth, and justice.
The Argument to End All Debate
November 9, 2009 at 18:37 (Gay, Lesbian, Bisexual, and Transgender Issues, Politics)
1996 – DOMA, prevents U.S. federal government from recognizing same-sex marriage
2004 – Massachusetts legalizes same-sex marriage
2008, June 16th – California legalizes same-sex marriage
2008, November 5th – Proposition 8 bans same-sex marriage in California
2008, November 12th – Connecticut legalizes same-sex marriage
2009, April 27th – Iowa legalizes same-sex marriage
2009, September 1st – Vermont legalizes same-sex marriage
2009, November 3rd – Maine repeals same-sex marriage after a People’s Veto
This is nonsense. Why have we allowed states to give rights to people and then let the people take them away? How is a ban on same-sex marriage constitutional anyway?
The U.S. Constitution grants all Americans the right to life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness. Two consenting people getting married is (usually) a happy occurrence. Therefore, not allowing same-sex marriage is denying millions of Americans the pursuit of happiness.
The Declaration of Independence states that a government’s purpose is to protect the rights of the people it governs and that if the said government does not protect those rights, then the people have a right to make the government protect their rights.
Under this logic, it is the federal government of the United States that should legalize same-sex marriage and tell the states to deal with it. This is not an issue that the states would be able to pick and choose about.
We, as a nation, need to stand up and say that DOMA is unconstitutional, that states picking and choosing who gets what rights is unconstitutional. It is our duty as Americans to make sure our government is doing its job and to deny a select few the right to marry and the pursuit of happiness is simply unAmerican.
The Broken Pot
November 6, 2009 at 00:15 (Feminism, Gay, Lesbian, Bisexual, and Transgender Issues, Writing)
Tags: abortion, abstinence, comprehensive sex ed, sex ed, stis
In a small middle school somewhere in the United States there is a class segregated by sex. The girls are shuffled into a room where they know they see the mysterious “Period Movie”. They all heard about it from friends in higher grades and big sisters and moms. The boys, however, get to go outside to play sports and do not have to endure an outdated movie telling them that they will bleed from their nether regions once a month for what seems like the rest of their lives. For most kids in Mississippi this is what sex education class is like. When I was in eighth grade at R.H. Long Jr. High School in Booneville, Mississippi, a potter came to our science class for a week. I remember her talking about diseases like genital warts, syphilis, gonorrhea, and AIDS. I was also the person who knew that HIV was the Human Immunodeficiency Virus and that AIDS was the Acquired Immunodeficiency Syndrome, but my mom was also a registered nurse. The only other thing I remember the potter talking about was abstinence. She brought a very beautiful pot that she had made previously. It was shiny and perfectly symmetrical. This, she said, represented us before we had sex. We were perfect and whole as long we did not have sex before marriage. As she said this she started making another pot. She made the base too thin and as she worked the sides higher, the piece seemed to melt off the wheel. After pretending to try to save the pot from sudden destruction she showed us the failed attempt at a chaste human being and told the class that this is what we would be if we had sex before marriage. There were girls and boys that were already sexually active in my class. One or two of them would be seen in the halls of the high school during the next year sporting stretched out bellies that showed the cause of their shame. In 2006, former President George W. Bush shoved more money into abstinence only sex education even as teen pregnancy rates in states like Mississippi, Alabama, and Louisiana increased dramatically. It is time that this generation of Americans take responsibility for teaching our young people about safe sex in an effort to decrease the amount of unplanned pregnancies, abortions, and sexually transmitted infections.
As I detailed previously, the sex education I received in school was lacking. My mom filled in a lot of gaps with descriptions of condoms and how to use them and pictures of babies covered with herpes from her prenatal nursing book. She tried her best, but it was still lacking. All the hetero-normative sex education in world would do me no good because it did not tell me how to protect myself as a lesbian. Very few schools in the United States use sex education curriculums other than the abstinence only faith based kind. I have heard accounts of girls in Florida thinking that drinking bleach would get rid of AIDS. By teaching abstinence only sex education we are alienating students who are not Christian, because abstinence is a Christian idea, and students who do not fit into the boy and girl gender and sexual molds we try to stuff them into. A major reason why HIV and AIDS are problems now is because people are not using safe sex methods. Mississippi currently has the highest number chlamydia cases per capita of any other state in the Union. Last year Mississippi State University had a major chlamydia outbreak. Comprehensive sex education is the only way to get everyone educated about the risks and how to prevent them without alienating people in the process. We owe it to our next generation to let them know what is out there and how to protect themselves from unwanted disease and unwanted child rearing responsibilities. We need to increase the affordability and the access to birth control. Elective abortion would be a null and void issue if people knew how to prevent pregnancy. Young gays, lesbians, and bisexuals (GLB) would have the access to life saving knowledge. There is a higher rate of suicide among GLB youth because they don’t have a support system to tell that they are normal in most places. Comprehensive sex education informs young people about sexually transmitted infects and how to prevent them, various contraceptive methods, and alternative lifestyles.
The abstinence only movement is the brain child of the Christian Right movement. It is religiously motivated, which should in theory make it unconstitutional in public schools. The abstinence movement’s main argument against comprehensive sex education is that it encourages young people to engage in risky sex behavior that undermines the moral fabric of society. Research by a number of groups including RH Reality Check, a reproductive health organization, has shown that comprehensive sex education delays early sexual involvement among teens and increases the use of birth control among already sexually active teens. Abstinence only curriculum have also been found to be medically inaccurate in many cases which puts our young people at a higher risk. No independent organization has found evidence to suggest that comprehensive sex education is linked to the demoralization of a society either.
I was lucky enough to have the drive to educate myself about sex without engaging in risky behavior where I found other people’s information lacking. Not every young person has that kind of drive and some just get caught up in the heat of the moment. We owe it to our young people to educate them to the best of our ability and that is not what we have been doing. We have been putting our greatest resource at risk, but we can change that by urging our representatives to vote for comprehensive sex education.
Same Thing by Flobots
November 5, 2009 at 21:56 (Music and other media)
Tags: flobots, media, music, politics in media, war
I just heard this song on Pandora Radio and thought it was particularly interesting. Please comment your thoughts on it…
Somewhere between prayer and revolution
Between Jesus and Huey P. Newton
That’s where you find Johnny Five
Shoot shootin
Water guns at the audience while you’re scootin’
Your gluteus max due to the fact that
I’m tootin’
On the horn gonna warn you that
I’m rootin’
For the other team in the culture wars
So I stab the beast belly as the vulture snores
YO JOE!
Let it blow with convulsive force
‘Til walls fall off their false supports
‘Til Jericho’s aircraft carriers alter course
And all brave young Americans are called ashore
Cause we’ve already lost the war they keep wagin’
Splattering the streets in battles that keep ragin’
Bloodyin’ each page of the story that we’re studyin’
Each day the same just the names keep changin’
Saying the same things over again
Repeatin’ the same slogans we don’t know where we’ve been
We’ve been all over the globe on our government’s funds
Leavin’ man, woman, and child dead bloody and numb
Saying the same things over again
Repeatin’ the same slogans we don’t know where we’ve been
We’ve been overthrowing leaders with legitimate views
Democratically elected but we didn’t approve….
How many times can the line divide
How many wars to uphold your pride
These fears uncontrolled just swoll the tide
Of blood in the streets while the people die
I’ma keep on tryin’
Longs as suffering’s multiplyin’
And why not
These souls get tossed and left out to rot
My backs broad enough to help left your cross
As long as you help with mine
The process of healing will take some time
To see the pain in your face is the same as mine
It’s not a game or a race but the stake is high
We maintain our mistakes for the sake of sides
As long as it takes
I’ll say it one more time
As long as it takes
I’ll say it one more time
As long as it takes
I’ll say it one more time
Saying the same things over again
Repeatin’ the same slogans we don’t know where we’ve been
We’ve been all over the globe on our government’s funds
Leavin’ man, woman, and child dead bloody and numb
Saying the same things over again
Repeatin’ the same slogans we don’t know where we’ve been
Same thing
U.S. is not us
Same thing
And us is not we
Same thing
And we are not satisfied
Same thing
We’re tired of the same thing
Same thing
And we’re ready to make change
Same thing
Are we ready to make change?
We need money for healthcare and public welfare
Free Mumia and Leonard Peltier
Human needs, not corporate greed
Drop the debt and legalize weed
We say ‘yes’ to grassroots organization’No’ to neoliberal globalization
Bring the troops back to the USA
And shut down Guantanamo Bay
Who let ‘em overthrow Jacobo Arbenz
Who let ‘em overthrow Mohammad Mosaddeq
Who let ‘em assassinate Salvador Allende
I didn’t let ‘em but they did it anyway
Who let ‘em overthrow Kwame Nkrumah
Who let ‘em overthrow Aristide
Who let ‘em assassinate Oscar Romero
I didn’t let ‘em but they did indeed!
Don’t let them assassinate Hugo Chavez
Don’t let them assassinate Evo Morales
And bring back Martin, Malcolm, Medgar, Hampton, Schwerner, Goodman, Chaney
Sayin’ the same things over again
A Poem and Song
November 4, 2009 at 22:08 (Gay, Lesbian, Bisexual, and Transgender Issues, Poems, Writing)
Tags: differences, gay, gender, glbt, lesbian, lgbt, lyrics, music, poem, poetry, song, songwriting
I’m having problems thinking of something to write right now because I’m going brain dead. So, this is a poem that my mom sent me one time. I’m not sure who wrote it, but here it is:
Differences
Dolls and trucks
pinks and blues…
The line begins to blur.
He likes her, she likes him
but she also kinda likes her.
He’s out on the field,
She’s there to cheer
but he can’t help but notice
the guys that are near.
Afraid to face it
Can it really be true?
Neither one knows
just what to do.
They can’t tell their parents
they don’t tell their friends.
They suffer in silence
and hope that it ends.
She wants to like boys,
He wants to like girls,
but each starts to realize
there’s a whole other world.
Do they deny who they are
and hide from the hate?
Or step out of the closet
and accept their fate.
It’s a sad situation
our kids face everyday,
till they gain the acceptance
to go their own way.
If we’d open our minds
and open our hearts,
help them fight for their rights
So they aren’t set apart.
Life could be better
for the gay and the straight
if we would just cease our judgement
and stop feeding the hate.
We’re all made so different,
yet so much the same
not one of God’s children
should cower in shame.
Black or white, gay or straight
every soul should celebrate.
For who they are and what they’ll be
just might set this whole world free.
The song is one I wrote lyrics to but not music when I was taking Songwriting in high school.
Walking down the street
Watching your back
For your defeat
When you hear the crack
It’s just another day
When you know you can’t stay
Even when your not feeling strong
Just keep hanging on
When your not feeling like you belong
Just keep holding on
Wondering this world
Not knowing when you getting beat
While your life is being hurled
And you can’t get back on your feet
When there’s nothing left to do
And everything’s askew
Even when your not feeling strong
Just keep hanging on
When your not feeling strong
Just keep hanging on
When your suffering in silence
That you wish you could control
Trying to find that brilliance
That hides in your soul
When everything else has been foregone
Just keep holding on
Now run it by me one more time
Cause the lights growing dim
The past won’t let me climb
And the future’s looking grim
Pull it back together and
Hope for better weather
When your suffering in silence
That you wish you could control
Trying to find that brilliance
That hides in your soul
When everything else has been foregone
Just keep holding on
Utopia
October 27, 2009 at 21:40 (Books, Poems, Writing)
Tags: NaNoWriMo, National Novel Writing Month, poem, poetry, Utopia
Utopia is not a place where people have to choose whether to feed themselves or their children.
it is not a place where homelessness exists or where people are beaten for race, creed, gender, or ability
it is not a place where bodies are objectified and commoditized
it is not a world in which a 15 year old girl is gang raped and beaten for two hours with no one coming to her aid
Utopia is a great swirling of colors, cultures, and beings
each being separate and mixing at the same time
it is a world of equals
It may be a while before I post again because I fully intend to participate in National Novel Writing Month starting November 1st. So if I don’t see you guys before December starts then have a wonderful Thanksgiving. Be safe and have fun. And to those who are also participating in NaNoWriMo, good luck and happy writing!
peace out
9/11
October 13, 2009 at 22:28 (Uncategorized)
Tags: 9/11, ani, ani difranco, difranco, terrorism, war
Mom and I are currently watching a documentary on 9/11 and it reminded me of Ani DiFranco’s song/poem “Self Evident”. Here are the lyrics:
yes,
us people are just poems
we’re 90% metaphor
with a leanness of meaning
approaching hyper-distillation
and once upon a time
we were moonshine
rushing down the throat of a giraffe
yes, rushing down the long hallway
despite what the p.a. announcement says
yes, rushing down the long stairs
with the whiskey of eternity
fermented and distilled
to eighteen minutes
burning down our throats
down the hall
down the stairs
in a building so tall
that it will always be there
yes, it’s part of a pair
there on the bow of noah’s ark
the most prestigious couple
just kickin back parked
against a perfectly blue sky
on a morning beatific
in its indian summer breeze
on the day that america
fell to its knees
after strutting around for a century
without saying thank you
or please
and the shock was subsonic
and the smoke was deafening
between the setup and the punch line
cuz we were all on time for work that day
we all boarded that plane for to fly
and then while the fires were raging
we all climbed up on the windowsill
and then we all held hands
and jumped into the sky
and every borough looked up when it heard the first blast
and then every dumb action movie was summarily surpassed
and the exodus uptown by foot and motorcar
looked more like war than anything i’ve seen so far
so far
so far
so fierce and ingenious
a poetic specter so far gone
that every jackass newscaster was struck dumb and stumbling
over ‘oh my god’ and ‘this is unbelievable’ and on and on
and i’ll tell you what, while we’re at it
you can keep the pentagon
keep the propaganda
keep each and every tv
that’s been trying to convince me
to participate
in some prep school punk’s plan to perpetuate retribution
perpetuate retribution
even as the blue toxic smoke of our lesson in retribution
is still hanging in the air
and there’s ash on our shoes
and there’s ash in our hair
and there’s a fine silt on every mantle
from hell’s kitchen to brooklyn
and the streets are full of stories
sudden twists and near misses
and soon every open bar is crammed to the rafters
with tales of narrowly averted disasters
and the whiskey is flowin
like never before
as all over the country
folks just shake their heads
and pour
so here’s a toast to all the folks who live in palestine
afghanistan
iraq
el salvador
here’s a toast to the folks living on the pine ridge reservation
under the stone cold gaze of mt. rushmore
here’s a toast to all those nurses and doctors
who daily provide women with a choice
who stand down a threat the size of oklahoma city
just to listen to a young woman’s voice
here’s a toast to all the folks on death row right now
awaiting the executioner’s guillotine
who are shackled there with dread and can only escape into their heads
to find peace in the form of a dream
cuz take away our playstations
and we are a third world nation
under the thumb of some blue blood royal son
who stole the oval office and that phony election
i mean
it don’t take a weatherman
to look around and see the weather
jeb said he’d deliver florida, folks
and boy did he ever
and we hold these truths to be self evident:
#1 george w. bush is not president
#2 america is not a true democracy
#3 the media is not fooling me
cuz i am a poem heeding hyper-distillation
i’ve got no room for a lie so verbose
i’m looking out over my whole human family
and i’m raising my glass in a toast
here’s to our last drink of fossil fuels
let us vow to get off of this sauce
shoo away the swarms of commuter planes
and find that train ticket we lost
cuz once upon a time the line followed the river
and peeked into all the backyards
and the laundry was waving
the graffiti was teasing us
from brick walls and bridges
we were rolling over ridges
through valleys
under stars
i dream of touring like duke ellington
in my own railroad car
i dream of waiting on the tall blonde wooden benches
in a grand station aglow with grace
and then standing out on the platform
and feeling the air on my face
give back the night its distant whistle
give the darkness back its soul
give the big oil companies the finger finally
and relearn how to rock-n-roll
yes, the lessons are all around us and a change is waiting there
so it’s time to pick through the rubble, clean the streets
and clear the air
get our government to pull its big dick out of the sand
of someone else’s desert
put it back in its pants
and quit the hypocritical chants of
freedom forever
cuz when one lone phone rang
in two thousand and one
at ten after nine
on nine one one
which is the number we all called
when that lone phone rang right off the wall
right off our desk and down the long hall
down the long stairs
in a building so tall
that the whole world turned
just to watch it fall
and while we’re at it
remember the first time around?
the bomb?
the ryder truck?
the parking garage?
the princess that didn’t even feel the pea?
remember joking around in our apartment on avenue D?
can you imagine how many paper coffee cups would have to change their design
following a fantastical reversal of the new york skyline?!
it was a joke, of course
it was a joke
at the time
and that was just a few years ago
so let the record show
that the FBI was all over that case
that the plot was obvious and in everybody’s face
and scoping that scene
religiously
the CIA
or is it KGB?
committing countless crimes against humanity
with this kind of eventuality
as its excuse
for abuse after expensive abuse
and it didn’t have a clue
look, another window to see through
way up here
on the 104th floor
look
another key
another door
10% literal
90% metaphor
3000 some poems disguised as people
on an almost too perfect day
should be more than pawns
in some asshole’s passion play
so now it’s your job
and it’s my job
to make it that way
to make sure they didn’t die in vain
sshhhhhh….
baby listen
hear the train?
Open Season!
October 12, 2009 at 22:37 (Knitting)
Tags: Knitting, open, season, socks, yarn
I just wanted to let you guys know that it is now sock knitting season!! It’s my first one ever! I will be posting photos of works in progress (WIP) later!
Cunt…
October 5, 2009 at 21:44 (Books, Feminism)
Tags: anatomical jewel, book, Books, cunt, Inga Muscio
So I started rereading my favorite book in the whole wide world, Cunt by Inga Muscio, today. I will likely be sharing bits of it with you guys as I work my way through this refreshing cunt loving book. This first bit is from the preface. Every time I read it I get this warm, tingly, happy feeling. This excerpt fills me with pride.
Women are blue-black as the ocean’s deepest knowledge, creamy-white ‘n lacy blue-veined, freshly ground-cinnamon brown. Women are Christian motorcycle dykes, militantly hetero Muslim theological scholars, Jewish-Chinese bisexual macrobiotic ballerinas and Chippewa shawomen who fuck not just lovers, but Time and Silence too.
Women are drug addicts, anti-abortion activists and volunteers for Meals on Wheels. Women have AIDS, big fancy houses, post-traumatic stress disorder and cockroach-infested hovels. Women are rockstars, Whores, mothers, lawyers, taxidermists, welders, supermodels, scientists, belly dancers, cops, filmmakers, athletes and nurses.
There are not many things which unite all women.I have found “cunt,” the word and the anatomical jewel, to be a venerable ally in my war against my own oppression. Besides global subjugation, our cunts are the only common denominator I can think of that all women irrefutably share.
We are divided from the word.
We are divided from the anatomical jewel.
I seek reconciliation.